~freecheshire

At this time exactly one year ago, I was suicidal. Is that weird? Because I've been so happy lately, I haven't really thought about it, but...
Today I cut again. Not much, just a little pin scratching out a heart on my wrist. (because I wear my heart on my sleeve. get it?) but i just feel... i don't know.

i want to be unconscious. i wanna lie down on the cold concrete and throw my head at the ground until the darkness comes.

fuck.

I only write when my heart is breaking.

It's been a while. The funny thing is, I've drawn kind of a lot, but nothing that was really finished work. I decided I needed to put up some of my shiny painting done... oh, about 6 months ago now, I'd guess. Both were done in rather... interesting... phases of my life.
Anyway! I gotta get back to my Ethics homework.
Good night, world!

( Oh, and look at my shit! Leave me comments! BWAHAHAH! :is a commentswhore: )

I know I've been updating kinda a lot lately, but... *shrug* I dunno, I guess I just found out that I like drawing. ^,^ Even though I kinda suck at it. Like... a lot. <3 Hee.

Anyway! I think my pictures look better in my sketchybook than they do on DevArt, but that probably has a lot to do with the school-scanners being the only way I can get my crap onto a computer. On a related note, I'll probably draw over Thanksgiving weekend, but don't expect to see anything new on here over that time. (Using a SCHOOL scanner, remember?) So... you can prob'ly expect to see this great flood of garbage on Monday or Tuesday or something. *nod* Yup.

...Other than that... OK, so a few of the new things are Christmas-themed. I'm sorry, but I listen to the horrible Christmas music on KOOL108 (107.9) in the morning, and I sing along and make up doofy dances, and I think the music is affecting my brain-cell count. So there are Christmas drawings. Sorry. x.x;; (Don't be too surprised to see Happy New Year crap soon... x.x)

Also, I have drawings of the Queen of Clubs and Queen of Hearts. Expect the Queen of Diamonds and Queen of Spades soon, as well as Alice, "Dinah" (Danae), and the Cheshire Cat. I'm thinking about re-starting up my BrokenWonderland webcomic one of these days, so I'm kinda planning how I wanna do characters. Maybe now that I feel a little more confident in my drawing abilities, I can actually do more than... three... comics... *cough* Heh. ^,^;;

I'm gonna try to get PhotoShop on my computer again so I can use that to color. Stupid hard-drive and its crashing. I miss PhotoShop. *pout*

That's it for today! Not that anyone reads this, but if someone WERE to read it, WOW! How knowledgeable you would be! <3 <3 <3

Stuck some new shit up. Yup. I like to color.
I don't have a scanner, so I've been snapping pics of my stuffs... It doesn't work so well. x.x; Oh well. Whatever works, I suppose.